this life is so unfair . i feel so empty now .something started to happen that would change my daily life . there's nothing else in the corner of my mind other than that .i keep thinking about what will happen to me tomorrow . without his smile in my everyday . literally , it's not about the death i'm talking about . but it's a little farewell for meh . he's moving to other school . ah i don't want this happen . through our previous year , yeah we've met here , in this school . so in this moment i just keep attempting to hide my tears . i don't want him to see me cry . i want him to be happy as we're still together . i had fucking feeling in these two fucking day . and maybe tommorrow too (?)
as today is his last day , we spend our time together in this school for a very last time . in our library . yeah tempat first meet kitaorang (2009) . every time i look at you , my eyes fill up with tears . he feel reluctant to leave me , it's against nature . i know it . and i can see the sadness through his eyes . i can't stand for this anymore . sumpah , i never cry in front of mana mana lelaki pun . but this time really , the tears come out non stop i tell you . aku bagi dia a wilted rose . yup , a wilted one . he wants to keep it . aku tak tahu kenapa sekarang jugak rose tu layu . so , i reckon that , now is the right time for him to keep that rose . *sigh* i never thought this day would come so soon . i miss him so badly . aku betul betul tak nak face hari hari selepas ni . it's nothing lah kalau one or two days . aku still boleh tahan even sangat menyeksakan . 2 weeks ? it still okay . but macammana aku nak face one year without him kat sekolah . i just wondering , how can the world carry on . i feel so lost when he's not by my side . i miss the moment when we used to have a chat during recess . hm . hari ni aku rasa sedih sangat . entahlah aku patut rasa bahagia bcs he still there , right here in my heart :') dah lah . hope everything will be alright :') i love you so much .
